I've got a BIG issue and need HELP

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I've got a BIG issue and need HELP; prayer request
Topic Started: Jan 29 2010, 10:03 PM (215 Views)
Ryan	Jan 29 2010, 10:03 PM Post #1
Newbie Posts: 10 Group: Members Member #4,847 Joined: August 9, 2008	Hi everyone. i know it's been a while since i've posted but i've been busy busy busy. OK I'm currently in NW Arkansas volunteering with a guy and he wants me to go to Arizona for gold prospecting. hoping to get rich. well from my last posts over a year ago i was in need of prayer for a move from new mexico to florida for a vision quest that The Load had waiting for me. my plan was to get a sailboat and convert it into a floating soup kitchen, float it to central america and feed hungry street kids. that trip turned out good and bad. but you gotta have ying and yang, right? either way, i learned alot about myself but still didn't get the sailboat and felt pulled to the bible belt. anyway in the last few days i found a job working for room and board on a dive boat out of ft. peirce florida. i need to get a ride so i've been scouring craigslist rideshares and found a gentleman that's a Christen whos leaving LA on the west coast for miami on monday. he's going to take hwy 10 but i was hoping he was going to take hwy 40. so i need the money to get to Louisiana and i'm pretty sure i won't be able to get it together in time. he said i don't need to pay for anything, just get down to hwy 10 and he'll pick me up. so i need prayer for me please that he will change his mind and go out of his way to get me. on a side note that is very important. the captain with the dive boat who i just got off the phone with seems to be a really nice older fella. the only problem is i get the feeling he is struggling with his sexuality. he is very lonely and needs someone in his life to be friends with and i understand his feelings all too well. i have struggled with the same problems he is now. he told me he had an accident years ago when his boat exploded and almost died and spent 2 years in the hospital. my question is do i go all the way back to florida and show this man what Jesus has done in my life and how He has brought me out of sin and into a new a new way of thinking. i can show this guy how i can love my fellow man but not resort to sin just because he's lonely. i pressed him on the homosexuallity aspect and i got the feeling he is struggling with it but never has committed to it. i would be staying on the boat with him fulltime so if things don't work out and i have to leave i would be on the street again, homeless. i have no problem with being around gay people and it actually will give me a chance to witness to this guy about the downfalls of the gay lifestyle. i just don't know if the reason i want to go to florida is to be closer to boats in the hope that i will be able to find my own or if it's to go there to have a home waiting for me but with the stipulations of living with someone who might be gay. i have no problem talking to people about God and don't care if they like me or not. while praying hard yesterday i found the gentleman's craigslist post about going to florida and was hoping this was confirmation. now he says he's going farther south than i thought. don't get me wrong, i have other options to get ride maybe but most are headed to new orleans to party then onto miami. i would much rather ride with a Christen directly to my destination than go huck it up in party town. i just don't know what to do right now. i want to help this old captain and bring me closer to my goal of the floating soup kitchen too, and i feel he really needs the help only Jesus can give him. am i supposed to be the one that shows him the love that Jesus has for me and that i know will give him a different perspective on life i have also just 4 days ago found out that my wife who i seperated from 4 years ago is in brasil too. so now my mind tells me to get to florida and get that boat then go try and patch this up with her maybe. please forgive me for being so long winded be alot has happen in the last few years of my life and i feel that i'm being pulled in all different direction at once. i want to help eveyone it seems and that usually leave me with nothing for myself at the end and i really want to do the floating soup kitchen thing. i wonder if i'm being selfish sometimes. i've volunteered the last 2 years of my life now and find myself on the brink of homelessness. please help with whatever wisdom God can give you. i told you it would be a big issue



Morning Star	Jan 30 2010, 10:30 AM Post #2
Advanced Member Posts: 194 Group: Members Member #5,090 Joined: June 24, 2009	Something really big have you thought maybe a one day fast and prayer for this?
	This is the day that the Lord has made and I will be glad and rejoice in it...Praise the Lord for His love endures forever!!


Wil	Jan 30 2010, 01:30 PM Post #3
Administrator Posts: 12,023 Group: Admin Member #1 Joined: September 21, 2005	Yes really press into God as to what to do, praying that you will be able to hear Him clearly.



manolo	Jan 30 2010, 01:43 PM Post #4
Advanced Member Posts: 1,562 Group: Advanced Members Member #4,788 Joined: July 13, 2008	Sometimes when I'm not sure what to do, I ask the Lord to open the door he wants open and to close all the doors he wants closed. The Lord has been known to slam the doors shut. He will only open the one I'm to go through.



Josepha	Jan 30 2010, 04:15 PM Post #5
servant Posts: 237 Group: Members Member #5,167 Joined: January 4, 2010	Ryan, fasting and praying from the bottom of your heart will provide His answers. When the answer comes, He will confirm it multiple times. "Ying and yang"? That is new age, brother. Please don't be tossed on the waves...



Ryan	Jan 30 2010, 05:13 PM Post #6
Newbie Posts: 10 Group: Members Member #4,847 Joined: August 9, 2008	thanks to everyone . i recently talked to my friend in florida via email and told him my feelings about the lifestyle of homhsexuallity and here is the email i sent him. [i want you to know i'm willing to come down there and help you because i enjoy helping people. i could use a good friend too and in this crazy world it helps to have people who have you back. but i also want you to know that i'm a believer of Jesus Christ. i also want to tell you that i'm not into being with another man. that doesn't mean i can't love another man like a brother and be there for that person when needed. i also want to tell you that i love everybody and try to treat everyone with respect. i just need to tell you this so there is no misunderstanding. i care about you and want to let you know that. stay in good spirits and if this is what God wants then i'm sure He'll provide a way for me to get there.] now this is what he sent me back [I beleive you are right. I'm glad you are so understanding about the human spirit and that a man has needs and must feel that he has someone with him that truly care for his well being. I was so selfish my entire life that I never realized this until my accident which made me see what really is important in life. The Lord helps those who help themselves and that is what I did . However I am willing to help you get here with a ticket....please call and I'll use my credit card to get you to Ft. Pierce......] so i don't think his statement about "the Lord helps those who help themselves" is biblical. is it???? but clearly this man is in need of healing and that's what God has called me to do. i know there are risks to going down there and there is something i would like to share with everyone about a dream i had back in 2003 or 04. when i was still with my wife she would pray for me to have dreams and visions and they would be no stop and very lucid. the dream.. i'm in a decimated city, somewhere on a coastal location and it's hot and muggy. there is rubble all through the streets and the tall buildings are crumbling. a man is chasing through the rubble. he is a skinny black man and at the time of the dream i referred to him as haitian. i'm looking for something to protect myself with because my sword is gone. yes, i travel with a sword that looks like a walking stick. in real waking life. well this man is getting closer to me and just as we are about to battle i sensed to look up. as i do is see coming in from the coast a massive tsunami higher than the buildings around me. i dart into one of the few remaining skyscrapers jumping through a hole in the wall and start running up the stairs. end of dream. so i have had many dreams of tsunamis but this one is different. i can't find my sword. now there has been a timetable attached to my dream. when i loose my sword, watch for a tsunami to hit somewhere on the east coast. last year when i hitch hiked to missouri from florida i gifted my sword to someone that gave me a ride when i really needed it. he was happy to have it and i never really knew how to use it anyway and i don't want to hurt anybody either. plus cops always eyeballed it when they stopped me walking on the side of the road so i figured it was time to give it away. i thought i'd never go back to florida so there was no reallly reason for me to keep it and it lightened my load too. now i feel when i go to florida this time it will be without my sword and i will experience this and be caught right in the middle of a horrible disaster. this really doesn't bother me because i know if i stay true to God's will i will be protected in my time of trouble. with all the earthquakes and shaking going on i don't see how this won't happen while i'm there. but i just want people to know that even in the face of certain death i must do want God wants for me. even though i am nervous and don't want to die i long for being next to God and feel that if i don't go then i will curse myself to failure in His eyes. i feel called to florida and it's not just the sailboat thing. it's a chance to reach out to someone in need of fellowship even if this person is commiting sin. i keep thinking of who Jesus went and spoke words of encouragement to. they were the people that needed it. the sinners and the downtrodden. so now i think i need to go to florida. even if it means i will loose this body through physical death, but gain the prize i've been seeking for a long time. i really appreciate you guys here on this board and hope that everyone finds what they are looking for. just know you won't find them in your possessions. i've never been closer to God than when i was poor and had nothing.



Ryan	Jan 30 2010, 05:22 PM Post #7
Newbie Posts: 10 Group: Members Member #4,847 Joined: August 9, 2008	Josepha Jan 30 2010, 04:15 PM Ryan, fasting and praying from the bottom of your heart will provide His answers. When the answer comes, He will confirm it multiple times. "Ying and yang"? That is new age, brother. Please don't be tossed on the waves... thanks for your post. let me clarify something. the ying and yang thing has been around for i think a few thousand years from china. it represents cycles of up and down, good and bad. through my travels i've seen it at play many times. mainly with people that think everything is always good and nothing can ever go wrong as long as they stay close to God. these people set themselves up for certain disappointment when things do go wrong. that is why i say we must have ying and yang in our lives. and even if things do go wrong we must still thank God for them. think of Job.... he never cursed God even through all the trails he experienced. if i want to see the miricals God has in store for me i have to take the good with the bad.



Josepha	Jan 30 2010, 05:27 PM Post #8
servant Posts: 237 Group: Members Member #5,167 Joined: January 4, 2010	Those who live by the sword will die by the sword. For the Word is mightier than the sword. The full armor of God is what we need to stand, and no weapon formed against us shall prosper.



Josepha	Jan 30 2010, 05:29 PM Post #9
servant Posts: 237 Group: Members Member #5,167 Joined: January 4, 2010	Ryan Jan 30 2010, 05:22 PM Josepha Jan 30 2010, 04:15 PM Ryan, fasting and praying from the bottom of your heart will provide His answers. When the answer comes, He will confirm it multiple times. "Ying and yang"? That is new age, brother. Please don't be tossed on the waves... thanks for your post. let me clarify something. the ying and yang thing has been around for i think a few thousand years from china. it represents cycles of up and down, good and bad. through my travels i've seen it at play many times. mainly with people that think everything is always good and nothing can ever go wrong as long as they stay close to God. these people set themselves up for certain disappointment when things do go wrong. that is why i say we must have ying and yang in our lives. and even if things do go wrong we must still thank God for them. think of Job.... he never cursed God even through all the trails he experienced. if i want to see the miricals God has in store for me i have to take the good with the bad. We shall preach the GOOD Gospel, not the enemies counterfeit, not even the dragon's (China). I will pray that your eyes be opened and the shackles of bondage be removed from you, in Jesus Holy Name, Amen! Edited by Josepha, Jan 30 2010, 05:30 PM.



Ryan	Jan 30 2010, 05:48 PM Post #10
Newbie Posts: 10 Group: Members Member #4,847 Joined: August 9, 2008	Josepha Jan 30 2010, 05:29 PM Ryan Jan 30 2010, 05:22 PM Josepha Jan 30 2010, 04:15 PM Ryan, fasting and praying from the bottom of your heart will provide His answers. When the answer comes, He will confirm it multiple times. "Ying and yang"? That is new age, brother. Please don't be tossed on the waves... thanks for your post. let me clarify something. the ying and yang thing has been around for i think a few thousand years from china. it represents cycles of up and down, good and bad. through my travels i've seen it at play many times. mainly with people that think everything is always good and nothing can ever go wrong as long as they stay close to God. these people set themselves up for certain disappointment when things do go wrong. that is why i say we must have ying and yang in our lives. and even if things do go wrong we must still thank God for them. think of Job.... he never cursed God even through all the trails he experienced. if i want to see the miricals God has in store for me i have to take the good with the bad. We shall preach the GOOD Gospel, not the enemies counterfeit, not even the dragon's (China). I will pray that your eyes be opened and the shackles of bondage be removed from you, in Jesus Holy Name, Amen! thank you i accept your prayers with discernment.



sirlancelot	Feb 7 2010, 05:03 PM Post #11
Advanced Member Posts: 241 Group: Members Member #687 Joined: February 18, 2007	Careful with chasing the fools gold, my dad and uncle have had gold fever for many years up here in Alaska, after thousands of dollars invested in crazy equipment and debt up to the ears all they have to show for it is a little gold dust in a bottle, its back busting work.



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